Cutting free: 3 days
Self harm free: 0 days
Purging free: 0 days
The man I had sex with for the first time wrote me. It was two years ago and I was in love with him very much. But he didn’t liked me back, he was 4 years older and just wanted sex. I’ve cheated my ex boyfriend with him and omg don’t know what to do now. I love Panda so much but this man.. he makes me so weak. He’s Albanian and very good looking and very charming.
Therapist appointment went good yesterday. Finally some methods of resolution. She told me just to bring my own food everywhere I go, doesn’t matter if I eat it or not, I shall try and I’m not a failure if I can’t eat it in front of other people as long as I try. And she also said I shall tell Panda about my relapse in self harming and cutting. It’s important for our relationship and he told me he wanna know about it and because of this it would be a lie if I don’t tell him. Was at his house yesterday but I just couldn’t tell him about it. It’s too awkward.